if it were up to me

I would spend the rest of my life watching criminal minds and looking at tumblr endlessly. Unfortunately, I'm not currently aware of a job that pertains to those interests that will pay me enough money to support HBO and Cinemax on my monthly cable bill. Which I will most certainly need. So now I have to go to "college" because people only believe that you learned something if you paid for it.
In order to go to college though, I have to finish high school, which I did, about 9ish hours ago.

I'm done. That has not quite set in yet. The fact that it is summer has not even hit me, but maybe that's because I have a graduation meeting at 8:30 in the morning on Monday. Those evil administrators will not just let me sleep. But, I am not particularly one for change. I would be content with a normal, considerably average every day life if it meant I could take awesome vacations whenever I wanted. College is, unfortunately, not going to be one big awesome vacation, because I still have to do all that learning stuff. And my major is currently biochemistry. I want to die. I just want to hang out with movie stars and eventually marry one and then go live in like Switzerland. But my mom won't let me major in film so I can't do that.

I think my problem is that I'm just really lazy. It's going to take a lot to recharge my ambition that high school slowly, but surely, burned completely out. The only thing I can think of now is maybe becoming a super smart scientist so I can meet Bruce Banner or something. Maybe he'll even invite me to be in The Avengers. Although I will not be She-Hulk. Maybe Ms. Marvel. Maybe.

But, I keep thinking of things I need to do for school, or things that I will tell my friends at school. But, I can't, because I'm not going back to high school. And it's weirding me out. I DO NOT WANT TO BE AN ADULT. I am denying this birthday. Who decided that 18 year olds could all of a sudden be able to go out into the world? I feel like 12+ years of school should have prepared me for this. Yet, I don't feel prepared at all!

I'm just grateful that I have this one last summer to get my crap together and ignore the intense pressure that I feel like I should be feeling. If you need me anytime this summer I will be doing absolutely nothing. So, obviously busy.

my summer plans

I think the worst part about growing up is that you don't get summer anymore. I literally cannot think of anything worse. Summer is maybe my favorite thing ever. I just cannot bring myself to become a teacher though. I hate children more than I love summer. Plus there is mad drama up in school faculties, it's like high school except you can't graduate and go to out of state college to get away from the people that work there, it's the same people every year. I will just have to be in school indefinitely, so I always have summer, or find a job that starts after 11 am.
I let you know if they ever invent a job where you can just browse tumblr from 9-5 and then sleep for the rest of it. I will be all over that

Cheers,
Cayla