i often have a problem with getting burnt out with music. I will discover a new band and quickly go out and buy the cd, then listen to it on repeat until I know every word, beat and rest and get so entirely sick of it that I feel like I can never listen to it ever again. Then I will skip it on shuffle for a couple of months then, rediscover, rejoice, rinse, repeat. I have been really trying not to do this recently. So after about 2 days of constant listening to the lovely new vampire weekend cd I just got, I knew that I had to stop listening to it. So I quickly put my ipod on regular shuffle, after skipping through about 100 songs that I used to be obsessed with I stopped on a familiar song, fireflies by owl city. Unless you've been dead for the past year you know what song I'm talking about and you probably know it's a great song, and if you don't feel that way you can keep it to yourself. So I let the song play, figuring I would be doing other stuff anyway, but then I just sat and listened. Listening to that song immediately shot me back into the past.
The first time I ever heard it, sitting in a barstool in my kitchen eating breakfast before school sophomore year, the music video came on and I stopped eating, this song wasn't like everything else on mtv. so when got home I googled the music video again, watching this little awkward boy hunch over a keyboard and play an amazing song got me right away. And then at the start of one of the least exciting/happy school years of my life, I had discovered a new band. Not just
a band, but my
next band. The next band that would change my life in some huge way and would send me into hysterics at their concert.
Next I was sent to the frozen custard stand by my grandma's house. lauren & I had been waiting for that stop all year. As I sat eating delicious custard (10x more delicious than ice cream with 10x the calories) I was surrounded by flashing and buzzing fireflies, how could I not think of that song, then go home and sit in the room and listen to it 1000 times? owl city was that entire vacation, it was all my ipod played, it was when we discovered sky sailing and when we made our lyrics video to on the wing (remember that, if not just go back to june or july).
But then that one song transported me to a place i've never been, but somehow I knew so well. A house with a bedroom filled with magical toys and a boy crouched over a keyboard, with a kitchen with barstools and a tv that plays music videos while you eat cereal in the morning, with a frozen custard stand down the street and a big, green yard filled with trees where you can take pictures with umbrellas and lyrics. Everything that fireflies reminded me of came together in that house. It was like I could go and walk through the room will flashing lights and fighting robots, ducking from the flying blimp and walk over to that boy to ask him to sing me a song.
I think that building day dreams is kind of like building a house. You take an idea, then you stem off from it with stories and events that you make up, building frame work around the foundation, the idea. Then you fill it in with characters, some familiar, some made up, finishing the interior of the house. Then you add the finishing touches, the furniture, with personal moments from your real life. Then you have your daydream, filled with some rooms that you've known all you're life, like my kitchen and custard stand and then some places that you've only been to once or maybe never. Like adam's bedroom in the video that has suddenly become a part of my mind, I think that every single thing that happens to me makes its way into one of these houses. Every thing that I've observed, every place I've been, every decibel that I've heard adam singing to me from a tiny speaker on my floor has made that house. But maybe it's not just adam, maybe I've got a beach house in california with andrew mcmahon, maybe a trashed suburban sprawl with the matches, a lofty new york apartment with vampire weekend. it's not that I'm imagining living in these places with these people (although that would be awesome) I'm just saying that the more I hear a song, every time that I listen to a cd over and over again on repeat I am building an overview of their music and for me it takes the shape of a house. That house holds the personality of the music, the hardships the lyrics convey, the experiences that I imagine them having that would lead to their music. They build a house that houses not people, but the passion in the music.
in the word's of the man who inspired this all
if my heart was a house, you'd be home
which makes perfect sense, because no matter where I go, all I have to do is turn on my music and I'll be home.
cheers,
cayla